Well, well, well. Remember when I wrote 2 blog posts? With every intention of keeping up with that shit? Second baby. That is what happened. August 3rd, I gave birth to my ridiculously cute, chunky, food lovin', insomniac of a son. Long story short, we are still figuring this whole thing out. Do we ever figure it out, moms? The word "BALANCE" runs through my messy and chaotic brain 1000x a day. I just can't seem to get some fricken BALANCE in my household. I see all these moms with even MORE kids then I and they're totally rocking it... "oh play date today? how about some Jillian Michaels this afternoon? Oh look I made 10 glittered mason jars and taught my daughter how to read" all while looking fabulous and having well behaved children. So, I started thinking to myself.... there has to be a secret to this chaos. If they can do it, then f#&king rights, I CAN TOO.
My new years resolution was to find this mysterious super power called "balance". New years day came around and I woke up thinking "this is it! today is going to be awesome! we are going to clean out all those closets, I am going to bake that fricken banana bread AND i'm going to BLOG"
Unfortunately, Nolan didn't catch the new years resolution memo and decided it would be a great time to not only give me a whole lotta sleep, but graciously allow me to not put him down ALL day. January really sucked. People I wanted to see, and wanted to get together with... I just wasn't able to. Things I NEEDED to do, I either did them BARELY or didn't do them. Nolan would have a crappy night of sleeping and I would be lagging ALL day. My poor husband. My poor friends. My poor daughter. POOR ME! (don't worry - I won't complain this whole blog post)
I realized that the only person who can "change" this was me. It wasn't even necessarily channggginnggg things... it was just changing my attitude towards myself. Learning to say NO to things so I didn't overwhelm myself with stuff that wasn't important to me or my family. Learning when to fricken shower so you don't hear the baby crying and your daughter getting into something in the kitchen (night time, ladies) Learning how to survive the day from a sleepless night. Learning to be POSITIVE! And I think I have it some what figured it out??(haha! nope) The truth is, I had to come to terms with the fact that I am only human and I CAN'T do everything. And that is OKAY. I have mentally made a list of things that are important for me to do during the day and everything else can just wait. At the end of the day, all that is important is that my family is healthy, and happy..... and that I have just a tiny little bit of sanity left to drink a glass of wine with out crying over it. I have gotten back into the swing of photography and that feels amazing. Something to set me aside from the hustle and bustle of being a mom all day.
Self- love.... it goes a long way. That's what I WASN'T doing in those first few months of baby haze...... taking care of ME. That makes a whole world of a difference in a person's attitude. So, moms.. take care of YOU. Love yourself like Kanye loves Kanye, It is okay.
I was born to be a mom and I love this life and my babies... but that doesn't mean that it will be easy. We need to all accept that more.
So here it is. The NEW blog post that took me 2 months to write. It feels pretty good and I can't wait to share all the funny stuff that's been going on in our life... and the serious.
